You will treat it like a job, because it is a job. But it will be a job you love, because after all writing is something you love to do. You will show up, because you made an appointment at this time and on this day to do this thing. You made a promise to yourself to do this thing.
It will feel like a job, sometimes and like you’re overcoming a massive wall of resistance. That’s what it means to do the job, but if the thing means enough to you, then your love will be greater than the resistance, and you will overcome it.
You will fulfill a promise to yourself. When you make that appointment and you show up to it and do the thing – no matter what the outcome – you will have fulfilled a promise to yourself. You will show yourself that you take yourself seriously. You will gain confidence that the thing can be done. And because this confidence of yours is a kind of organism, you will need to keep showing up to appointments to feed it. The thing that you’re making will grow and whatever else is going on in your life – heartbreak, misfortune, failure, or disappointment – you will have that thing that you’re giving your life to. The resistance will then seem like such a small, insignificant thing compared to the pain of not doing the thing.
You will be legit. You will no longer be an aspiring artist. You will be an actual artist, one who makes bona fide art. You will no longer be someone who is embarking on the journey, but you will be on the journey itself and learning and growing from it.
You will be able to focus on other areas of life. You will no longer think to yourself, I should be writing, when you are at work and changing out the bus bin or making photo copies. You will feel that guilt less and less, because you will have an appointment that you’re making on a regular basis, where the thing is getting done. Unless of course you’re not making that appointment in which case you will feel guilty.
You will get the thing done. One day you will notice that you have written 25 or 50 or 100 thousand words for your book. You’ll have a portfolio of photographs and drawings. You’ll have made comic books and zines or produced your first full album. You will have finished projects. You will have created something, and you’ll wonder why you ever resisted it in the first place.
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